Kristina’s Journey

Focus

December 12, 2009

photo credit: lul­ule­mon ath­let­ica It’s funny how things snap into per­spec­tive so eas­ily when your child looks at you and says, “I love you.” I have known for a long time that I need to lose weight. Two-hundred and ten pounds of weight. I won’t try to fig­ure out how I let this hap­pen because the fact is that it did hap­pen. What I am focus­ing on is los­ing it because that is what mat­ters. I was recently diag­nosed with an Over­ac­tive Thy­roid. A lot of peo­ple with this dis­or­der lose weight but that has not been the case for me. […]

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Realizations aka the Truth Hurts

September 15, 2009

I saw pic­tures of myself yes­ter­day. Pic­tures that my sister-in-law posted to Face­book so that all of my HS friends could see just how fat I had got­ten. I was dev­as­tated. I looked beastly and was so embar­rassed because I could not believe that I stopped respect­ing myself enough to get as obese as I am. I cried for what seemed like hours and then, like every fat per­son, blamed other peo­ple for my fat­ness. LOL. But some­thing inter­est­ing hap­pened. I real­ized that there are no more excuses. That there is noth­ing but change left. It’s a shock­ing thing– seeing […]

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Self-Defeating Behavior

September 14, 2009

Maybe I am actu­ally afraid to be suc­cess­ful at weight loss. It seems to me that if I truly wanted to lose weight, I would just jump on it, right? Yet, as heart­felt as my pre­vi­ous entries were, I have fallen back into some behav­iors that have helped to keep me fat. That’s part of the rea­son that I have not been blog­ging here. I find it much eas­ier to lie to myself when I am not writ­ing things out. But yes­ter­day, I had a real­iza­tion after find­ing out that a friend’s hus­band ended up in the hos­pi­tal and in […]

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